Sunday

Sunday afternoons can be a lonely time. I take my girls back to my ex's home after church. I usually feel relieved because it allows me to recover a bit and clean up the tornado in my home. I also feel melancholy because I am usually not wanting to be as proactive as I need to be in other Sunday responsibilities. Is that guilt? Maybe...I will just go with melancholy right now. The word has a nice ring to it.

It is also right before Monday. I love my job and my co-workers, but it does mean I have to refocus and get geared up for the week. I never feel totally ready. Oh well. Why am I writing all this? Not sure, I think I also really want to go flying again and I am excited for actual good weather if it will ever arrive. I think that I have all these things I want to do and I find time to be a very precious commodity.

I played tennis for the first time in a while last week. It was a lot of fun even if I didn't do that well. I have a great serve, but it only lands in play about one in every ten hits...so it really isn't that great. I guess I need more practice.

I made meatballs about 2 months ago and I made way too many so I froze about 8 of them before I cooked them. These meatballs are the size of a small fist. After thawing and baking them they turned out great. I think I will do that on purpose next time because I love meatballs but they are a lot of work to make to my anal standards.

Coming Out Party

I had a coming out party. No, not that kind of coming out. I think that it actually happened about 3 or 4 months ago. I recognized that I am actually a somewhat outgoing person. After years of being introverted and shy, I find myself more drawn to other people. I hear that the definition of an introvert is someone who recharges by being by themselves, whereas an extrovert recharges by being around people.

Being in a marriage for 10 years with a true introvert affected my personality and the way I viewed myself. As with any individual, life is a constant series of discoveries and I have discovered that I do enjoy others. (usually)

I don't know why I say that or how it is relevant, but I once again realize that this blog is for me and it always helps to write it down.

Ok, so last week was fun, I realized this whole dating thing is harder than it looks. I think the most important thing I have to work on is communication. I need to understand what I am saying and what is being said. Sounds simple but for some reason I am not so great at it. Hmmm...maybe that is why I am now divorced? Let me think about that one...

I got to go flying yesterday. Yeah! It was a great trip up around Utah Lake and we flew over Nutty Putty Cave and back. Perfect weather. It is always a lot of work and preparation but I can't think of anything I would rather be doing. There is just something about it that sucks me in. I am having slight radio difficulties but nothing I can't figure out. I think I am having engine interference. When I transmit, nobody can hear me when I have the throttle up. So in order to be heard, I have to set the engine at idle. This makes for a lot of up and down flying (literally). For those that don't know, the throttle doesn't actually affect speed in these machines. It only affects altitude. So full throttle doesn't go any faster, it only goes up. So when I set it to idle, I only have a limited amount of time to transmit before I have to go back up. Thins can be tricky since we like to fly close to the ground sometimes.